Already December

Its already end of 2019 and I still haven't posted any meaningful things. Well, I'm pretty much busy with my real life, and on the other side I keep forgetting to write some update. 
Currently I'm busy with my fangirl life and personal life. Most of my friends know that I'm a Carat, fan of South-Korea Boyband called Seventeen. I just watched their concert 2 weeks ago (Middle of November) in Istora Senayan. The concert is as usual Seventeen type: Attractive, Charming, and Nerdy. Maybe I will write about Seventeen and my fangirl activity on the next post, hopefully by this December. 

Also, I've been busy with my mind and my real life. Lots of worry came to my mind. Many things happen with myself, my family, my friends, and also my work. Honestly, I'm struggling so much. Not because the things that happen, but the things I'm worried about. Worry about my job, my friend who's getting married, my friends who's going to be a mother next year, my friends who's having some hard times with her marriage life, and my friends who's living far from Indonesia. And also, worry about my own love life. That will be a long essay if I write about my love life I think. Maybe later I will write it, but not sure since I will pretty much forget what to write once my hand is lay on the keyboard. 

2019 is near the end. Hopefully I can end it with happiness, just like how it starts. I wish everyone will find their happiness, and also I sincerely pray I will find my happiness soon. 

See you in 2020! 

First in 2018

Work and Life Balance.
I try so hard to reach that point in my life. I've tried to find a new job and new office in order to achieve it. Its been 4 months since I moved to the new place, but I haven't reach that point (yet). As time goes by, I found that a new place is not the answer. So, I need to find another thing to reach that point.

Do you have any suggestions?

Random Quick Post #27

I pray that in our next life the wait will be short and the meeting will be long.

-a quote from Korean TV Series: Guardian (2017)-

Quick Random Post #26

There's no easy way, it gets harder each day.
Please love me or I'll be gone.

Random Favourite Lyrics #3

It's been hard wakin' up, wakin' up to the truth

I've been so blind, couldn't see for love no.

Tried my best to ignore it, wish the pain away

But just like tomorrow, its coming round again. 

Thought I gave you the best, but it wasn't enough

You took advantage of my trusting heart.

Tried my best to forgive you, did my best to forget

I am done with the tears and there are no regrets.

Please don't treat me like a fool.

Title: Don't Treat Me Like a Fool

Singer: Blue

Charm

Sure, he does. 

Jejak Langkah yang Kau Tinggal

Memang aku tak selalu ada dalam mimpi indahmu
Mungkin aku t'lah berlalu, jadi kenangan yang tak kau banggakan

Tapi bagiku cinta adalah harta yang tersimpan

Jejak langkah yang kau tinggal mendewasakan hatiku
Jejak langkah yang kau tinggal takkan pernah hilang slalu
Begitulah cintaku

Walau kau hanya singgah sekejap di cinta tulus ini 
Tapi sangatlah berharga, jadi kenangan yang aku banggakan

Maka bagiku cinta adalah harta yang ku simpan

Slamat jalan kekasih, temukan yang jauh lebih baik
Jangan pernah kau rasakan janji yang kau ucap padaku dulu

-Tohpati ft Glenn Fredly-

Semua yang terjadi di hidup ini, kejadian sekecil dan sesingkat apapun, pasti ada hikmahnya.  Cinta, Pekerjaan, Pertemanan, Persahabatan, Pergaulan, Kegemaran, Kebiasaan, dan hal-hal kehidupan lainnya. Semuanya membuat kita belajar sesuatu. Semua itu membuat kita menjadi lebih dewasa. Tergantung pintar-pintarnya kita memaknai setiap hal yang terjadi. 

Quick Random Post #19

Quick Random Post #18

Saya menulis post kali ini ditemani lagu milik The Corrs (Hardest Day of My Life) dengan cuaca hujan di luar sana. Sebenarnya tidak banyak hal yang ingin saya ceritakan. Saya sekedar menulis saja apa yang ada di pikiran saya sekarang. 

Saya rindu teman-teman saya (padahal saya baru bertemu mereka 1 jam yang lalu), saya rindu kehidupan kuliah saya, saya rindu atmajaya, saya rindu suasana kampus yang penuh dengan mahasiswa lalu lalang (yang ramainya sama dengan stasiun kota), saya rindu makanan kantin dan panasnya udara di sana, saya rindu dosen-dosen saya, saya rindu dosen Pembimbing Akademik saya, saya rindu bangunan kuliah dan kelas. Singkat kata, saya merindukan masa-masa kuliah saya. Bahkan saya merindukan diri saya yang dulu. Entah mengapa, saya merasa berubah. Menurut kalian bagaimana? Apakah saya memang berubah atau itu hanya perasaan saya saja?

"Aku kira bulan, nyatanya lampu jalan. 

Aku kira kamu bisa selamanya memberi cahaya, nyatanya kamu hanya menyilaukan mata."

Quick Random Post #16

달라진 것은 없어 혼자인 걸

또 다른 사랑이 올 거라고

나 믿어봤지만 이젠

숨쉬는 것 마저 힘이 들고

이렇게 커져만 가잖아

Awan dan Langit

Tidak ada lagi langit biru di atas sana dan di sini
Entah siapa yang berkhianat,
langit biru atau awan putih?

Adakah yang berkhianat? 
Bukannya mereka memang tidak terikat?

Bukankah awan putih sudah berjanji untuk menjaga langit biru demi kebersamaan mereka?
Jadi, ini salah awan? Awan lengah dan tidak menjaga apa yang ada di sekitarnya.
Apa karena awan tidak berusaha membahagiakan langitnya agar selalu biru?

Awan kini hanya berteman gelap.
Penyesalan datang karena awan lalai menjaga kebahagiaannya bersama langit biru.
Kini langit biru telah memudar

Tapi, apa iya, ini semua kesalahan awan?
Bukan permainan takdir yang sedang menguji kekuatan dan ketulusan awan?

Kini di tengah selimut kelabu, awan berusaha mencari kembali langit birunya
Apakah langit biru akan kembali pada awan?
Sampai kapan awan terus menurunkan hujannya ke daratan?

Saat itu, ketika awan berhasil menemukan langit birunya, awan berjanji akan selalu menjaga dan membuat biru langitnya

Ini adalah janji awan kepada takdir agar awan dapat kembali bersama langit birunya.


ini bukan soal asmara. ini soal awan dan langitnya.

-M.D 131030 23:46-

Smile

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by

If you smile through your pain and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow you'll see the sun come shining through
For you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying

Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

-Charlie Chaplin's Smile-

Quick Random Post #15

"For the perfect you, I’ll always be a lacking person."

Rain

Rain.. I still don’t have any memories
Because I’m just a twenty year old girl

Rain.. in my earphones, the singer is singing a song about rain
What is she so sad about? Why is she about to cry?

Rain.. Please forgive me for being numb
Not everyone cries over sad movies

Rain.. I like you or dislike you according to my mood 
but, tears are about to spill out right now

It’s raining too so the wetness is natural
The refraction is natural, my stuffy nose is natural

I am about to cry outloud right now
It’s raining too and my bed sheets are damp
So I bury my face and the humidity goes up 1 degree


Rain.. I still don’t have any memories
Because I’m just a twenty year old girl
Rain.. in my earphones, the singer is singing a song about rain
What is she so sad about? Why is she about to cry?

Now...stop.

song by: Kim Ye Rim | title: Rain
eng trans by: pop!gasa


Rain, thank you for all the memories
because I'm a twenty three year old girl.

Quick Random Post #14

"If I am then what I have, and if I lose what I have, who, then, am I?"

-Erich Fromm-

Quick Random Post #13

"There are more people who are suffering from relationship with others than those who are suffering from work.

There are more people who regret because of a relationship than those who regret because of work. 

Every job is created with relationship with others."

cr: @ChungMinCho

Quick Random Post #12

"Changing not the speed of walking, 
but the direction you're going is the purpose of change. 
Real change always changes the direction."

cr: @ChungMinCho

Quick Random Post #11

Sleep is coming, sleep is coming
It comes at the end of these thick tears

In my room, out the window
Out the interest, as I turn my back
I spend many nights with your memories

Starting from the first day that it rained
Till the last soaked day
The darkness of the long tunnel
In my dream, it soaks up slowly

No matter how much I turn back your memory
Those words, I cannot avoid
At the end of separation,
I turn back, I turn back

Slowly, slowly, the stacked up emotions
Slowly, slowly, the gathered memories
I will slowly, slowly forget them
Andante

I try to endure through it
But I can’t help it
It builds up coldly, in front of my eyes
My tears gradually well up, slowly

Someday, I will slowly, slowly forget them

Andante...

Song by: Super Junior | Title: Andante | Composed by: Leeteuk & Henry

credit:pop!gasa

Quick Random Post #10

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did

And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible

And now when all is done, there is nothing to say. 

-Song by: James Arthur | Title: Impossible-

Spring~~

It feels good that spring has come.. Spring always reminds me to LOVE. 
Well, I think falling in love with someone on Spring day is the best thing! Isn't it? 

SPRING & LOVE = PERFECT! ;)

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